My second week

Hai again,

My second week is my first week of teaching. The first class I went to is the third- rank class. I was so happy that I able to teach the good students and I even planned carefully my lesson plan. I also prepared my own handouts consists of comprehension questions. However, I was shocked at the students' response. 

They ignored my teaching, talking and the worst part, they didn't even look at my handouts. I was so sad thinking that I spent hours making the handouts and planning for the class and the result was a disaster. I spent most of time walking around the class forcing them to look at my handout and do their work. I even speak  loudly  to attract their attention. All of my strategies I used, failed. In the end, I can't finish the whole lesson.

On my way back to the teachers' room, I kept questioning myself whether I am a good teacher or not. I even doubt my teaching passion. I almost gave up.

Then, on the next day, I have to teach another class, the fifth-rank. I didn't prepare too much as  I did previously because I believe that I need to check the students' attitude first before planning my activity. However, I provide handouts for the students as my teaching aid. I did not expect much for this class because based on the previous class, I don't want to be  disappointed. However, this class took me by surprise. The students in this class are totally opposite from the previous class. They are eager to learn in my class and even joining me in the discussion. Although they are talkative (they love to talk), they took part in my class activities. I was happy on that day.

Nevertheless, I decide not to give up on third- ranked class because I believe one day I can manage the class. Though it may take some time. And I hope the fifth-ranked class maintain their eagerness until the end of my practicum.      

That's all,

Thank you.